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What is Truth?
Truth is the moment arising and passing. It bubbles up, is truth to you in that moment, and then departs. It flows and unfolds and maneuvers itself to what is best in that moment and at that time. It’s never a YES THIS IS ABSOLUTELY what it is. It doesn’t live in absolutes. It is neither a yes nor a no. It just is. It’s the moment presenting itself to itself.
Trust
Instead shouldn’t we fall back into trust and live from a place that connects us to life force, that can guide us from a place of love and connection and unity. Shouldn’t we trust ourselves/our highest nature that it will guide us to the truest versions of ourselves and our truest path that is set in the stars.
The Transition
Truly embodying and just being your being-ness does not happen at the drop of a dime. This transition takes time, dedication to the new embodiment and trust.
The Ego
It’s an energy. It’s a thought. It’s universal sub-conscious energy. It’s how you think the world should be versus how it really is. It’s a forgetting of the TRUTH. It’s desire and likes and dislikes. It’s categorizing and compartmentalizing. It’s fear. It’s the illusion of safety. It’s protecting yourself. It’s society. It’s a toddler throwing a tantrum. It’s a wild beastie raging in fear.
The Train
You are a train. And your entire life you have been on train tracks headed in the same direction as all the other trains. You live by the train’s rules of only going one way on the tracks and only sleeping at the train station and only being productive by carrying things to and from on your train.
What is Life Force (God/Universal Consciousness/Buddha Nature and So Forth)?
It’s not a known ‘thing.’ It just is. Words can’t truly describe it.
It’s a feeling versus something you know in your mind. It’s the essence of everything and everyone. It’s the world behind the veil.
Pressure Cooker
There are times throughout the awakening process and especially when you are amongst a powerful ego dissolution cycle to feel as if you are in a pressure cooker.
Cycles
Through these cycles, the shifts in perspective and realizations go deeper and deeper. It’s life calling out to life. The energetic shifts become stronger. You are cycling closer and closer to awakening to your true nature. To the point where you don’t just glimpse or embody the truth for a time period. But to the point when that which is truth completely submerges your being, because it is truly who you are.
The Dark Night of the Soul
When the Dark Night hits. You feel like you are going mentally insane. Because you are. Life force is pushing you to go beyond your ego mind and your limiting beliefs. And in order for you to truly commit to this and go to the beyond. Your mind has to go crazy. It has to be uncomfortable. It has to be unbearable. It has to be a place you no longer want to live from. Essentially you have to be pushed so hard that you are willing to take that leap of faith into the unknown. Into spirit. Into life force. Into God Consciousness. Otherwise why would you ever leave the, what you think at the time as safe, confines of your ego mind.
What Nobody Tells You About the Awakening Process
When I started, I had no idea what would be asked to relinquish and also within that, no idea how hard it would be to actually do this. Honestly, I feel like a lot of teachings somewhat brush over this. It is extremely challenging and painful and difficult to let go of our long-held beliefs, fears and habit energies. It is so incredibly terrifying to say yes and relinquish your control to spirit. To let go, to give in, to accept, to trust—it can be so, so hard when you are in the midst of challenging situations. To give in when every bone in your body is saying no.
What the Dark Night of the Soul Feels Like
Heart hurts (pressure in the heart center and releases)
Gut hurts (pressure and releases)
Bone crushing exhaustion
Fear—so much fear (anxiety)
Ego Dissolution
The dissolution of the ego feels like dying. Because that’s precisely what is happening. The ego is dying, dissolving, shedding, so that the light of spirit can shine through.
Life/Death/Life Cycle of Awakening
Awakening is a continuous cycle of Life/Death/Life. In order to awaken, you have to shed, and something has to die. In this case, your ego has to shed, it has to die and then it has to evolve so a new you (a new state of consciousness) can live.
Essentially you have to give in, surrender, become transparent, and carve out holes in your ego so that the light of spirit, the divine, god, the universe, or whatever you want to call it, can shine through.
And this cycle of Life/Death/Life, it can be extremely challenging at times.