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Fear
I have been there. I have intensely and intimately felt so much fear. It has rocked me to my core, it has squeezed my heart in a vice, it has viscerally ensconced me in a shroud of darkness.
But it was there to be healed. It was there to be released. It was there to move through and let go once and for all. There were so many moments where I had to face my fears and sit with them and be with them and hold them.
Cleaning Out the Muck
When you shine the light of awareness on all your mental constructs, on all your misconceptions, on all of your beliefs, there is a lot of muck. And just when you think you’ve cleared out all the muck, you dig even deeper and find even more muck. Lots and lots of muck.
Honesty
Being honest with oneself is one of the hardest things to do. To look at yourself honestly and truthfully and from a place of humility can be very challenging. To see that we are the ones that are making ourselves suffer can hurt. It can make you mad at yourself. It can make you angry. To see that all your desires and wishes driven from the ego were in turn actually making you suffer can make you feel like the worst person in the world. As you see through your own illusions and grasping at things and limiting beliefs, it can feel like WOW is this really me. It can be quite a shock as you realize that you have been the captain of your own ship the whole time and you were the one who has been making yourself suffer. Not the world. Not your job. Not your housing situation. Not your relationship. But YOU.