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Sensitive
In our modern, patriarchal and masculine driven society right now the word sensitive is commonly interpreted as weak, soft, delicate, careful. We look down on the word sensitive and we deem it less important than other attributes such as strength or power. We see those who are sensitive as emotional or subordinate.
But what I have realized along the awakening path is that being sensitive is a gate to the other realms, it is the connection across the cosmos, it is the opening of the heart, it is the joyful beingness of oneness.
When It Rains, It Pours
I was being called into the darkness and to say that it was intense is an understatement. Especially while also trying to be a mom of a toddler as well as a newborn. My internal life completely and utterly unraveled. I felt deserted by the universe and was left barren, stripped and in the dark with nowhere to go except to simply let go.
Suffering
Suffering is a catalyst for growth, for change, for transformation.
It is life force telling us that we need to evolve, that something is off or it’s time to align with our true calling in this life. It’s a signal that we are living too much in the ego/thinking mind and it’s time to align with our inner life force, our inner soul, our divine nature, our truth.
Awakening and the Outside World
You are in it. You are in the depths of deep inner work. Of ego dissolution. Of the Dark Night of the Soul. You are ‘becoming.’ So much is happening internally—mentally, physically, emotionally. But to the outside world you still have to go to work and write emails and have meetings. You still have to go to the grocery store and make sure your kids are fed.
What Nobody Tells You About the Awakening Process
When I started, I had no idea what would be asked to relinquish and also within that, no idea how hard it would be to actually do this. Honestly, I feel like a lot of teachings somewhat brush over this. It is extremely challenging and painful and difficult to let go of our long-held beliefs, fears and habit energies. It is so incredibly terrifying to say yes and relinquish your control to spirit. To let go, to give in, to accept, to trust—it can be so, so hard when you are in the midst of challenging situations. To give in when every bone in your body is saying no.