Go-Mode
Throughout my life, my ‘go-mode’ has been strong.
I would hammer through work emails, check things off my to-do list, and hustle to get everything done. Laundry, check. Pediatrician visit, check. Kid’s snacks packed, check. Valentine’s cards ordered, check.
Life was a hustle. I prided myself on my productivity and it made me feel accomplished. I was a do-er. I got sh*t done.
And this was never more true than in my place of work. Go-mode was fully activated and on. Emails, check. Projects, check. Meetings, check.
But at what cost?
My ‘go-mode’ led me to an intense adrenal fatigue burnout, to health problems, to emotional instability, to living a life filled with stress, to exhaustion, to holding on to way too much in my body, and constant overwhelm within my nervous system. This is not the picture of wholesomely thriving.
I didn’t know that there was another option. Another way to live. This is what I was used to. This is what was expected of me. This is what our workplaces expect of us. This is what our parents expect of us. This is what society expects of us.
But this isn’t really LIVING. This is not really THRIVING. We think we are doing amazing and productive things but what is the actual vibration and intention behind this? WHY are we doing the work that we are doing? Is it for our own ego’s validation? Is it because of our sub-conscious programming? Is it because of other’s expectations? Is it because we think this is the way it is and so we must?
So much of our modern world is driven by the ego, by the sub-conscious. By things we have shoved down within ourselves. That we have compartmentalized. That we have shunned. That we honestly don’t even realize.
Living from our love is not about being productive. It’s not about hustling and driving and striving.
It’s about SURRENDERING into life force flow. It’s about setting the intention for love, peace, joy, harmony and letting life flow THROUGH YOU as the greatest expression of your unique divinity. It’s the conductor orchestrating. The music FLOWS through you.
And man am I STILL learning this lesson. Just when I think I have embodied the fullness of a new way of being, I am sometimes whiplashed back into old programming and habit energies.
I want to GOOOOOOO. And I want to GO NOW. I get into LET’S DO THIS mode. And sometimes it’s even coming from a place of excitement and passion. But I know that when I enter ‘go-mode’--it’s about grinding and urgency and must do this now.
And I have to say STOP. I have to take deep breaths. I have to release myself. I have to surrender. I have to say ‘where am I coming from here?’ Where is this energy coming from? Is it coming from my love? Is it coming from my service, dedication, and surrender to my love for this planet and all that reside here?
And yet again I have to be really honest with myself.
Where is this coming from?
And sometimes it’s not purely coming from my love. And that’s ok.
So I stop and re-set.
And I take a step back. And I realign with my intentions. I realign with my heart. I realign with the WHY and HOW behind what I am doing.
Because love has no desire for an ‘outcome.’ Love doesn’t care what the result is.
When you are coming from your whole self and realigning to the source within you–which is love. This has no urgent timeline. This has no desire for a certain result. This has no agenda. This has no KPI.
And yes this is the opposite of how our current paradigm operates.
But maybe we can try this new way of operating?
Because our current paradigm and ways of operating have led us to depleting our planet. To creating dissonance through duality. To over the top consumerism. To disconnection. To mind-numbing complexity. To homogenization. To fear. To control. To domination.
Our old way of operating is no longer functioning for us.
It’s breaking. It’s cracking. It’s falling apart.
What can we replace it with?
Re-aligning to our truth. Re-aligning to our why. Re-aligning to living life beautifully, expressively, and lovingly with NO AGENDA. Just the radiance and purity of this shining forth and guiding us. And yes I know that can be scary. You are like WHAT–we are supposed to have no plan and just go with the flow. Well yes and no.
This isn’t just a ‘I give up take me life’ scenario. This is still a very active embodiment, but it’s not coming from our external world, it’s not coming from just the mind, it’s not coming from striving and grinding. It’s coming through as source energy from the womb of no-thing where ANYTHING is possible. We have limited our creativity and resourcefulness for too long. It comes from the place within all of us that creates entire galaxies. It’s letting this beautiful energy come through YOU. You are not just this solid physical form, you are energy. You are so much more than what meets the eye.
The re-birth our planet so desperately needs is in the depths of our hearts. It’s in there. Our souls know the way. Our own unique individual gifts know the way. Each and every one of us within the layers of our being know the way.
But you can’t know this calling, this truth, while in GO-MODE. You can’t find this place within you while giving all of our empowerment up to the outside.
It’s about letting go of all of that so that the true creator being within you can shine forth. And you do things because it brings you joy. And because it allows you to creatively express yourself. And because it brings more love to the world.
You are no longer driven by social likes, by promotions, by money, by awards, by accomplishments.
You are driven by the joy of simply being alive and all that entails. You are driven by simply LIVING.
What happens if everyone right now just lived from a place of total and complete joy? This would create such a powerful cosmic energy that our entire planet would completely transform and evolve.
THIS IS OUR CALLING.
And now to end–this is never about not being excited or not still doing actionable things–this is about WHY and HOW you are doing those things.
And like I just had to remind myself recently. Am I doing this in love? Or is this for my own ego boost or accomplishments?
WE’VE GOT THIS!