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Defeat
There is no awakening without defeat. Because it is unto the cracking, unto the breaking, unto the shattering that the light can seep in.
If you do not hit the bottom. If you do not fall into defeat. If you do not let go and let in with your arms up in the air waving in absolute and utter yielding of all that you are, then you are still being run by the ego.
Fear
I have been there. I have intensely and intimately felt so much fear. It has rocked me to my core, it has squeezed my heart in a vice, it has viscerally ensconced me in a shroud of darkness.
But it was there to be healed. It was there to be released. It was there to move through and let go once and for all. There were so many moments where I had to face my fears and sit with them and be with them and hold them.
The Ego
It’s an energy. It’s a thought. It’s universal sub-conscious energy. It’s how you think the world should be versus how it really is. It’s a forgetting of the TRUTH. It’s desire and likes and dislikes. It’s categorizing and compartmentalizing. It’s fear. It’s the illusion of safety. It’s protecting yourself. It’s society. It’s a toddler throwing a tantrum. It’s a wild beastie raging in fear.
Pressure Cooker
There are times throughout the awakening process and especially when you are amongst a powerful ego dissolution cycle to feel as if you are in a pressure cooker.