True Growth
What is true growth? It is when you completely and utterly surrender an old part of yourself. And finally let go of that part of you to truly transcend it with the beautiful light and love of source.
This is very different from intellectual growth. Or learning something new. Or Intellectalizing something in your brain. When you intellectualize something and learn that is growth that entails only a small piece of your true self.
But when you go through true growth. When you truly and finally decide to move on from a fear, or let go of a limiting belief, your whole being grows–your spirit, your soul, your higher self, your mind, your body, your emotions, everything shifts. And this shift does not happen from your human self. From your mind. It happens from surrendering and letting go into source light (which is also what you truly are). When you let go into the source light that you are–this has the power of 1000 suns. It’s so much more powerful than anything your intellectual mind could ever do. It has the love and light and creativity from all that ever was and all that ever will be. Your mind won’t be able to figure this out. But the source light that you are can and will transcend this.
This is how true growth and transformation occur. This is how alcoholics truly shift. They don’t shift through their human mind, they shift through completely and utterly surrendering all that they are to source. Because source is also truly who we are. This is how to truly transcend fear. It is never through the mind. It is through letting go into the love of source. The IS-ness in all that you truly are.
I would know. I have been there so many times.
And as I have gone through too many growth cycles to count at this point. I now very much recognize the stages. And where I once fought things as I had no idea what was going on, I now simply know when it’s time to surrender. And I know what it feels like when you are in the goo of it all transcending old patterns.
The stages look like what I pen below, but for each of my various transcending growth periods they are also uniquely different–they both follow a pattern but are also different.
And that right there gets into the core of a very deep truth. The universe is entirely ambiguous with only perspective and no hard facts. We are all both these beautiful humans with hormones and relationships and in-laws and brothers and jobs and mortgage payments, but we are also literally what created the entire world. We are source. We are light. We are magic.
The universe is full of this. And it’s about realizing this and honoring the truth of this and acknowledging the beauty of balance into the wholeness of the contradictions, and ambiguities. It’s truly beautiful if you think about it.
But now back to the stages of growth:
There is a calling to move on from something because it keeps being powerfully reflected back to you. Our lives are direct mirrors of our inner worlds so if something is being reflected strongly back to you, it’s probably time to face it. It’s probably time to transcend it through true growth
Then there is the aha moment, or the ‘it’s time to move on from this,’ or the perspective shift. You have had a shift or an aha or a ‘come to jesus’ moment.
Then there is the old pattern battle–it gets really, really strong within you, because it is fully coming to the surface. This is very hard. It can feel as if your fear is worse than before. It can feel like you are swallowed by your powerful emotion around this pattern that needs to be transcended. For me, this feels like a freaking out toddler screaming, throwing tantrums and just not wanting to let go. It can be quite intense and the source within you is there to love this/you no matter what. As that’s the thing, all your fear, or sadness, or loneliness or trauma wants is love. When you truly embrace this truth and realize that this sub-conscious side of you that you buried just wants to come to the surface to be felt and loved, that’s all. You realize that the power of being able to feel and let go and then love and surrender can literally transform anything. And I mean ANYTHING. That is how powerful light and love are. And your mind won’t want to believe this but source can and will.
And then once your mind/old emotion/habit/fear, etc. has had a real good show of banging it’s fists and screaming and yelling and really not wanting to let go, you will get to the point where you have no choice but to surrender and let go. For me this is usually very emotional with a good amount of crying. But for me crying has always been a release. So this is always me releasing this energy, belief, fear, etc out of my body.
As you get into the phase of surrendering and letting go–it feels like absolute and utter defeat. You feel like well here I am. I am raw. I am open. I am in that potent innocence and intimacy that true growth can finally happen. You are completely surrendered to the source light that you are. And it flows and floods and transcends.
Now here’s the thing about this part–this transcendence part isn’t always pretty. For me when the deep transformation is occurring deep within you–you are going through the alchemical process. You can feel bone tired, like your brain is foggy and very sensitive, and emotional, and just wanting to be by yourself. It’s a very potent time. And there is a lot going on behind the scenes. This is the part where you just need to go with the flow and take care of yourself. Go to bed early. Rest. Get out into nature. Eat yummy food. You are literally recalibrating and alchemizing your entire being (not just your physical self, but your emotions, your energy body, your chakras, etc.--lots going on).
You might cycle through various different stages per the above a couple of different times. Honestly this happened to me a lot. You cycle back into the old belief fit and then surrender and move into the alchemical stage. Nothing is ever linear and transformation has no one size fits all.
And then–when the power of love and light has come forth through your entire being, you do transcend your fear, your emotion, your belief. I have done this, or should I say the source light that is me and is all of us has done this many times. It has transcended some really intense fears for me, like the fear of myself/people taking their own lives, the fear of failure, the habit energy of people pleasing, so many different things.
To recap, here’s the major stages:
The realization/awareness (bringing full awareness, aha moment, shift in perspective, or the blunt it’s just time to move on from this)
The surfacing (the old pattern/belief, ego, emotion, trauma, issue, etc. is coming out full force)
The surrender (letting go and allowing)
The alchemical process (transforming whatever it is into goo and then love and light)
The true shift (the completion into total source light and love)
True growth can indeed be hard, but when it’s time. It’s time. And the beauty, the love, the joy, the freedom that comes on the other side. Oh it is so glorious.
It is time for us to all let go of what is sub-consciously driving us. And to dive into the depths of True Growth.
Because the world does not change outside ourselves. It changes within the depths of our own hearts. So literally BE the change you want to see in the world.
When enough of us go within and truly grow from our fears, the world will no longer have fear. Imagine what that will be like! I look forward to seeing you there!
With love!