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Orchestrate
This is the truth of the buzz term ‘manifestation.’
The definition of manifestation is an event, action, or object that clearly shows or embodies something, especially a theory or an abstract idea.
Manifestation is the result. Its source coming into form. But to get to this. You first have to be the conductor of your life, be in the flow of the orchestra and let the light shine through you so that you can manifest all that you wish and desire from your heart.
Defeat
There is no awakening without defeat. Because it is unto the cracking, unto the breaking, unto the shattering that the light can seep in.
If you do not hit the bottom. If you do not fall into defeat. If you do not let go and let in with your arms up in the air waving in absolute and utter yielding of all that you are, then you are still being run by the ego.
Fear
I have been there. I have intensely and intimately felt so much fear. It has rocked me to my core, it has squeezed my heart in a vice, it has viscerally ensconced me in a shroud of darkness.
But it was there to be healed. It was there to be released. It was there to move through and let go once and for all. There were so many moments where I had to face my fears and sit with them and be with them and hold them.
Tension
There is so much tension building right now between the old and the new. I can feel it. It’s potent within our energy field.
But tension creates its own powerful vibration. It’s as if two boulders are grinding next to each other which is creating an immense amount of heat. And heat is power, it’s transformative. It burns everything creating a perfect base for re-birth.
Busyness
But there is a reason for that. We are staying busy on purpose. Because if we stop. We have to feel. We have to be honest with ourselves. We have to address what keeps chasing us. We have to face our fears, our hollowness, our underlying subconscious limiting beliefs that haunt us.
If we stop we have to face ourselves. Our whole selves. Even the darkness within that is begging to be healed. That is begging to be seen so it can be released.
And that is scary.
Ignite from Within
Let the overcomplicated, stressful, fear-based, ego driven, busy paradigm burn to the ground. Let the political duality, the big name corporate America, the pollutive, consumeristic driven society go up in flames. Let the power hungry, war mongering, masculine dominated ethos turn to ashes. Let the old be consumed by the fierceness of our convictions, by the fierceness of our love, by the fierceness of our yearnings for peace and joy.
What Awakening Really Is
What is an awakening? And what is spiritual enlightenment?
It turns out it’s not a concept. It’s not spiritual. It’s not religious. It’s not something that you become or reach for or accomplish.
It’s just you. At the end of the day, when it’s all said in done. It’s just you. And you realize that the ego you doesn’t actually ‘get’ anything. It doesn’t ‘get’ more spiritual. It doesn’t ‘get’ more enlightened. It’s just you coming into the wholeness of yourself. The you that isn’t limited by labels or definitions. Just the pure and true and beautiful you.
Soul Yearnings
Our soul yearnings are sacred. Our desires and dreams and wishes are sacred. They are sacred because we are creator beings. We create our world. We create the energy and vibrations that exist on this earth. By shutting the door in the face of your yearnings, in the face of your dreams, that is essentially you shutting the door in the face of your power. That is you saying no to the life force power that emanates forth from within all of us. And that is not how our Higher Selves want us to live. We are here to grow, to learn, and to bring about a new paradigm right now. We are here to co-create together a new way of being on our beautiful mother earth.
The Stages of the Dark Night of the Soul
The Dark Night is part of the awakening process and happens when you hit a certain point along your journey. Its purpose is woven into your own unique unfolding, soul lessons and path. The hardest part of this Dark Night of the Soul is that it disconnects you from the Universe. That is a tell-tale sign that you are in one: where there was once connection to spirit, where there was once flow and light from within, that gets completely and utterly disconnected during the Dark Night.
Joy
What is joy? True Joy?
It’s being in deep flow and presence with your entire being. It’s just being you.
It has nothing to do with accomplishments, or success, or money, or things.
It is not based on anything outside yourself. You cannot buy joy. You cannot produce it through striving, and driving forward, and reaching.
It always comes from within. It’s the light, the beingness, the presence of your true nature. You don’t need to be doing anything to feel pure joy. It just is.
Sensitive
In our modern, patriarchal and masculine driven society right now the word sensitive is commonly interpreted as weak, soft, delicate, careful. We look down on the word sensitive and we deem it less important than other attributes such as strength or power. We see those who are sensitive as emotional or subordinate.
But what I have realized along the awakening path is that being sensitive is a gate to the other realms, it is the connection across the cosmos, it is the opening of the heart, it is the joyful beingness of oneness.
Judgement
But right now, many of us in our modern society are so judgmental and so harsh and we push ourselves, and try and prove ourselves so intensely, whether in our work, in our parenthood, in our athletic achievements, etc. and so forth. And so many of us do this to cover up the unworthiness we feel deep down, the judgement of ourselves deep down. We don’t truly, unconditionally love who we are, so we cover it up with so many different things. I have been there, and my main cover up was my job.
After the Dark Night
When I began to step out of the Dark Night, it was as if I was a completely different person inside. I felt so light, so empty. My being felt as if so much had been dropped and so much had been let go of that when I closed my eyes there was so much more space.
With Gratitude
The darkest depths of my journey would not have been possible without the love, support and guidance from key mentors along the way.
This writing is to thank and honor them.
True Power
True power comes from within. It comes from a place of you being you. And letting that shine with all its brilliance unto the world.
It’s an alignment with the truth of who you are. And it comes from your heart.
True power is not about controlling others. It’s not about suppressing yourself or others. It’s not stanching creativity or forcing others to see the world only through your perspective. It’s not about forcing unto others only one way to do things. True power is not manipulation or bullying.
Honoring Your Humanness
Yes, you are eternal life force. You are pure empowerment. You are god consciousness. But you are also human.
And human’s mess up. And they fall on their face. And they do weird things. And they have jobs and kids and wives and husbands. And they like to dance. And they enjoy coffee. And they misstep and bumble along.
Releasing the 20 Pound Weight
The awakening process strips so much away. It strips away your long-held self-limiting beliefs. It forces you to face your fears so that you can transcend them. It takes away so much of who you thought you were and the person who society expected you to be. It strips you, and shines light in all the nooks and crannies of your being. And just when you think there is nothing left, it finds another little dark nook, and through the process of awareness drives this darkness to the forefront of your conscious for you to deal with whether you like it or not. It forces you to face everything. Literally everything. No stone is unturned, nothing left to hide.
Cycling Through Spirit and Your Misaligned Ego Beliefs
Just when you think you’ve arrived. Just when you feel light and free and can make anything happen, you cycle back through yet another fear, another misaligned belief, you cycle back into something you thought you had already dealt with. This is all part of the process.